You woke up feeling strange. You later discovered that they called that feeling 'being horny'.

For no reason, you wanted to be held by a man.
You felt the need to be kissed, cuddled, and to get sexually intimate with a man.

Your hormones were on the high side.
Seeing a cute guy made you feel like jumping on him and tearing him apart.

This was not how you normally felt everyday.
You tried to recall if you saw any movie or read any novel that was responsible for the feeling, but there was no record of such in your memory.

It was just nature taking its due course.

You wished you were married at that point, so that you could have your husband calm the raging storm of the fiery sexual urge you felt.

But sadly, you were not married. It wasn't even going to happen soon.

You were just eighteen, still in hundred level, and were not even in a relationship.

You recalled.
This same feeling came at one particular time last month, and the previous months too.

Then it clicked!
Ovulation! You were ovulating, just like you were taught in biology class.

The feelings were not helping matters.
It grew worse and you had no idea what to do at that point.

Then in a faint whisper, you heard the voice in your head,

“Lie down, close your eyes, and touch yourself.”

It sounded strange, but it also sounded fun and adventurous.

You didn't really know if it was right, but you decided to try it regardless.

“I'm not sleeping with any boy” you convinced yourself.

You obeyed the voice, laid down, shut your eyes, and touched yourself.

You did not need to be taught.
You found yourself using your hands to arouse yourself the more.
Then you stopped!

It didn't feel right.
You left your room.

But it didn't end there.

The other day you felt the same way, you touched yourself again, and again, and again.

It continued till you felt dissatisfied and started introducing objects to feel more satisfaction.

It kept on happening.

You discovered that the name for what you're doing is 'masturbation'.

But that's not the problem.

The problem is that you can't stop now.

You have tried but you keep falling back.

It feels impossible to leave it.

When did sexual urges become a curse? But yours had become more than that–it had become an entrance for a slave master.

You want to stop.
You need help.

You don't know if it's possible to get the help you seek, but if it is, you'd gladly take it.

Receive Help From above to overcome it in jesus name.